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New Years, eh? Still Clinging on to the Past

Sun Jan 4, 2009, 9:59 PM
  • Mood: Isolated
  • Listening to: --
  • Reading: The Adventures of Sherlock Holmes
  • Watching: Kuroshitsuji
  • Playing: The World Ends With You
  • Eating: cough drops
  • Drinking: water
I've just returned from my two-week trip to Taiwan.
Apologies for not saying anything before I left.

During my trip and upon my return, I feel as though my theory is more correct than ever.
"Everything happens when I'm not present."
And the fact that I'm the sort of person who hates to miss out on anything doesn't help me feel any better.

I'll start with my reason for leaving for Taiwan.
The problem first arose way back in May when we found out my grandpa on my mom's side was diagnosed with lymphoma, the same cancer that took one of my dogs back in 2006. Over summer, he went under chemotherapy and definitely seemed like he was on the path of recovery when we visited him over summer.
In October, we received calls from family that he wasn't doing well, so my mom flew back for a few weeks before coming back. She flew back a few weeks before Winter Break again.
My mom called back morning of the 8th.

I'm never present when anything happens.

And due to this trip, I couldn't do anything with my friends over Break.

This will sound selfish, and I know I'll be reprimanded in some way, but... I still can't help but feel this way...
Was it worth attending one major ceremony across the ocean at the cost of missing the several opportunities to hang out with friends?

Distractions. Momentary happiness. Ignorance. Bliss.
<KuraiSakura>

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:icondotluvr:
Aww I'm sorry that you feel that way Sakura-sempai. We missed you at the party!

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:iconhicodycod3s:
i stopped in taipie late may, its pretty nice there. sorry to hear about your grandpa and miss opportunities.
:iconvivid-cacophony:
don't feel bad for wanting to hang out more than attending a person's last ceremony. first off, you didn't know him well and weren't that close. second, you're human, it's only natural to want to have fun more than grieve.

and besides, we have many other times to hang out, LIKE THE 17TH 8DDDD

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:iconapocali:
"Everything happens when I'm not present."

Too right you are. Though I can't help feeling guilty. You never told me that someone had died...you know these things make a big difference when your friend is pressuring you to come to his party.
:iconjunkie-chan429800:
Mmm... I'm sorry to hear that.

Things come and go but death only happens once though, right?

Wow that was sadistic. *sweat* I meant that to help you... but... Forget it. =.=l|l

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